You guys...

[potentiality_26]

I appear to have signed up for H/C Bingo.  I am as surprised as you.

It has it's own entry here so I can check the boxes off as I go.



First, that I went for a blank background.  The actual one was is pretty, but harder than hell to read from.

Also, what am I doing, you guys?  I swear, the point of these is that there's always one in a line where you're thinking, "Gaslighting isn't a trigger for me or anything, but damned if I know how to work it into a fic."



So, there's that.
  

Comments

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

Where the character thinks one thing is happening, but it is actually another and they think they are losing their mind when it is actually so much WORSE than that. And you are keeping this all to yourself? *wants wants wants*

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Yus, because RPS shenanigans and personal porns and likely it sucks and my one reader I share it with would never tell me because she is awesome and sweet and I know it is HORRIBLE and BAD and there are terrible, terrible issues where there is non-con and hallucinations and...

It's bad...

*Whimpers*

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

I am fascinated by your ability to limit yourself to one reader.

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

LOL!! Tis self-preservation, mostly. Otherwise I'd create a beginning for this insanity and post it. Which would be bad. Like 'cross the streams' kind of bad, lol!! So I email this poor creature my scribblings and she is kind and puts up with...well...a great deal from me. Dunno how I lucked across the awesome friends I have, but I've got them.

I'm trying to save them all really. This fiction...ye gods...O_o What haven't I done in this fiction?!

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

It's a good thing for me that you aren't writing in my primary fandom. *points to icon* If you were I would be forced to pester you about reading it rather than being able to gracefully accept your authorial decision to limit the audience.

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

LOL!! Ahhh, you lucky, lucky creature, lol!! I know one day I will break (because I am weak and prone to fits of self-destruction) and I will deluge my poor listy with my terrible, horrendous drivel. And I am highly grateful my friend isn't here because she would likely kick my arse between my ears for calling my scribblings 'drivel' or 'talking bad about me'. *HANDS* I just...I love writing it. But oh my gods, it is - my character is now trying to kill himself, but is so disoriented, he can't even manage that. Poor bastard. Arrrghhh. I feel so bad for him. *Whimpers*

I call this my 'depression' fic. I started writing it when I was in a depressive state (and really had no idea, that's how often I get depressed/how well I pay attention *grins*) and it is...well, dark and bleak seem such watery descriptors. I still poke at it now and again. And my original characters are stupendous and I love them (though I shouldn't) and my main character is just...how he is still alive is astounding to me. My gods.

So it isn't so much wanting to limit my audience, as doing it so there will BE an audience when it is all over. But one day, that will be so much dust behind me as I drop this bad boy smack-dab in the middle of my ElJay. I can see it. *Facepalm*

This has been a fun and epic convo, I'll say! *smiles* and your Fandom DOES look to be fantastical and superior!

*SQUISHES*